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Tomorrow is the start of UT and I am not studying.

Don't ask me why, but I will do it later.

Having two UT later, FA & SS.

No joke I see.

Gonna meet Stellar and Cheryl later.

After all, I haven't see them both in a while so why not.

Life haven't been smooth sailing for me.

I don't know if this is suppose to be or my luck.

Cashless, full of problem, too much to hold.

yeah, my chest have been hurting again, on and off.

and even more and more painful.

it have been 6 months since it happen

now it did again.

I always thought of an easy life,

Me loving and liking what I want, do what I want.

But it doesn't seem that way,

especially when I wasn't the free bird I suppose to earn.

When human are judgemental and weird,

yes, I hate being a human, so disgusting.

And with so many to think about, what is the freedom an happy easy life?

I can't find them, never have I found them.

I can never express myself.

especially towards people elder than me

and That's why I am the robot, and they are the remote.

"Do this" ok, I do.

"Do that!"" ok, I do.

haha, what? forgetting one, "eh he have exam you do for him this and that"

what? Don't make it sound like only he has it, I have it too.

I am so tired, have you even thought about my feelings?

A tired person is really tired,

both Physically and Mentally.

I am just waiting till the day I turn 21,

I will decide what my life is.

When everything I am seeing and hearing are lies, acts, sweet talks but nothing.

who won't be sick and tired.

yeah, I will.

I will decide my own life I guess.